Its not the destination, but the journey that is the worthier part.

So it looks like the last time I wrote in this was right before I got my most recent ex girlfriend…

Little recap of 2012 – Jan – boring, Feb – boring, March – wonderful, April – wonderful, May – wonderful, June – not bad, July – not bad, August – eh I guess, Sept – same as August, Oct – again pretty meh, Nov – devastating… Dec – fantasticle, Today – pretty good.  Now that we have the list covered I can tell you the reasons why.

January – shitty snowy cold

Feb – Moved just south of the city, so that’s not bad i guess.

March – Went to a good friends wedding – Met a girl who I said “If I could I would marry that girl tomorrow”  Got back home, talked to her some, we hit it off, ect.

April – She came to visit, it was amazing, there were fireworks, my world flipped upside down, we were in love.

May – Again she visited, same as before it was amazing – went to MI to my mother’s house to pick up a ring because I was so sure.

June – No visit, she got busy, we still talked.  Also my awesome cabriolet got totaled by some dumb broad not paying attention.

July – Same as June really.  However I did replace the cabriolet with a Porsche 944, so that’s not bad.

August – Still talked, she was more and more busy though… at this point I was kinda getting annoyed, ect.

September – Same as August.

October – She was supposed to visit on Halloween, its been close to 6 months since I’ve seen her at this point.  Also Did a whole30 paleo challenge and lost 40 pounds, I plan on getting back on this as the results were amazing.

November – All hell breaks loose.  Most of my friends know what happened, so I am only going to write a generalization of what happened here.  1) Via the bookfacey thing I noticed her and some dude being cheeky and close and his picture was of them two standing pretty close… too close to be just friends.  I confront her, she gets upset, I give her the benefit of the doubt.  Fast forward to the 23rd…  Again, bookfacey… I see she commented on something about needing a plus 1 for a turkeyday thing… she told me she was going to be alone, then I see him posting how he loves his girlfriend of two months her saying how happy he is… SHE replied saying how happy she was and that she loved him, cause you know being my friend via that thing doesn’t show me everything or anything.  Well needless to say, I don’t take kindly to that shit and I ended it right then and there, bitch didn’t even try to hide it…  2.5ish weeks later I was over it.  Thanks to some good friends support, if you’re reading this… you know who you are and you fucking rock for it.

Then in December for Christmas I ventured out of the state down to the great steel city – Pittsburgh, PA, stayed with some family of a friend and also said friend.  Met up with a few friends I know out in that area as well.  I thoroughly enjoyed my vacation.  I felt very welcome, had a grand time, and will hope to be going back at some point when its not shitty and cold.  New years eve was interesting.  I was in a sea of lesbians, so that was cool, brought in the new years, made some new friends… All in all, I consider the intro to 2013 a win.

Now on to today…  looking at the clock its 4:30 am on what is now Sunday morning.  I am here wasting time writing this because I know I haven’t done so in so long as well as I just wanted to get all my feelings and lameness down on the internet for all to see; I ponder what exactly 2013 will bring me.  But honestly… it doesn’t matter, I’ll deal with it exactly as I have in the past – and as the title states, my new philosophy on life.  Its not the destination, but the journey that is the worthier part.

I am going to finish this post off with not my usual picture, but words that you can take or leave…

Don’t make resolutions, they are dumb and are used as excuses to fail at something.  Instead, reach down deep into yourself and pull out you… If you don’t like what you see, then do not me, not the world, not anyone else, but do yourself a favor and mold it into the person you want to be.

Good night all,
Jari

 

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